i just can't

understand why

my life
despite
the empty
subconscious of a lie
beauty
is not with me
tonight
want to
break you take you make you
down
while the thunder of
your hips and legs
move like
little birdie birds
beside me
how i hate
being me.

the pointless elegance
of your scattered
garden
of tangled hairs
always
enthralled me.